You are avoiding reality if…..


I’ve been labeled (mostly by myself probably) as reaching for too much at one time, but I’m starting to see that my pipe dreams are not the result of an overactive imagination. Somewhere in the back of my mind I know that something must be out of sync around me. If you’d seen my bedroom, you would agree. Something is out of kilter. I’m not a generally lazy person, all the time, but it seems that even the most menial activities escape the way I live my life. I’ve buckled down and made lists, promises to myself, given myself those psych up speeches, you name it (drugs, caffeine, alcohol) I’m sure I’ve probably tried it. Just a quick glance shows a terrible self-image, and if you witnessed my daily interactions with people, you probably wouldn’t be able to pin down what type of person I am, because I always try to stay off the radar. So the fact is that I make resolutions to myself because something needs to change, and although I’m doing things “well enough”. Nothing I see is even close to what I know people are capable of.

An episode of Heroes reminded me of something that I’ve seen people go through many times. Hiro had just told his best friend that he was going to die because of his time traveling, it wasn’t two minutes later he was traveling through time once again to save someone else. Later in the episode he was faced with the challenge of telling his sister that he was about to die… when the phone rang. He was on another mission to save someone from their own problems. Hiro kept going back in time to save someone that kept making the same mistake, and every time he came back to the future, his best friend would remind him that he needed to “deal with reality” and tell his sister the bad news. Hiro finally came to his senses and instead of playing “hero” once more, he just got honest and dealt with his issues through good old “communication”.

Once you’ve scaned a few tens of thousands of self-help pages and business books, you’d think this new information would change the way you live your life. Paradigm shift after paradigm shift and It seems I can still Dr. Covey shaking his head in guru land saying “Damn boy… get it together”. It seems maybe the solutions are not the solutions at all. Maybe things that seem a mess really aren’t. Maybe I’m like Hiro, chasing some reflection of myself, and avoiding something that needs to be dealt with.

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